Monday, December 29, 2008

new beginning

my heart was breaking
with grief.

a habit
which i had considered innocent
fell under the light
of my Father's gaze.
i looked again.
was that hideous thing
the habit i had considered so innocent?
i understood His loving disapproval.
how could i have tolerated such?

waves of guilt--rightly earned--
washed over my soul.

contrition dominated my heart.

how can i be delivered?
how can i be free?

i turn to my Father,
and realize anew,
nothing i can do will make Him love me less;
nothing i can do will make Him love me more.
He will never,
never despise a broken and contrite heart.

waves of His love
wash over my soul,
cleansing me of guilt and sin.

i am free.

i am free!

and though i may stumble and fall,
i will get to my feet
with His help,
and start again
and again
and again

until i can run,
unburdened and free.

2 comments:

Christina said...

This encouraged me today.

Hope a.k.a. Ernestine said...

Dear Tammie,

You are so good at writing; it is such a joy to read your post! This is a wonderful message.
Psalm 37:23-24
23 The steps of a good man are ordered by the LORD: and he delighteth in his way.
24 Though he fall, he shall not be utterly cast down: for the LORD upholdeth him with his hand.
I see you changed your profile photo again. What a sweet grandson you have!

I look forward to the day that I have grandchildren.

Your son-in-law wrote a thoughtful comment on my blog this week. I was surprised and pleased to see it.

I pray that you have blessed day with God today.

Love, Hope